Life Gazing Starz

-mental block-

2010-09-28T21:53:00.000-07:00

I just got off the phone with my donkeyh. I accidentally lashed out on her which had no sort of related to what I’m stressing on about.

It’s my study.

I got panic and jolted myself up. I don’t even breathe rhythmically. My mind felt like it under exorcism-like chaotic. I got exactly a month to prepare myself for one of the most understatement battle i ever had. I must go through this battle. I must win it. If i lose this, i might not be able to stand up again. It seems that my brain blocking out all the information that i desperately sunk inside my cranium. I’m guessing that i need to relax my brain. I’d tried to toxicate myself but my body seem to reject the temptation of the highly praised tequila. I’d tried reading off some inspirational book but i just keep thinking about my revision notes.

Fargh!!

Hence the turmoil mood that i unintentionally spat to my donkeyh. Then as fast as Michael J Fox jumped into his time machine car, my mind went back to the year of 1994.

I was in Year 6.

I was about 11 years old with white baju kurung and dark-blue sarong standing beside my desk reciting doa. That year was one of the crucial years for me as i am one of the most-promising students to achieve excel in Primary Certificate of Education Exam. I can still smell the thickening air of pressure. Pressure to achieve top class result for my school, my teacher, my parent and even my greedy ego. I remembered my teacher, Teacher Suriani, once told us that the only easy way to study is to open up our heart. An open heart had vast spaces for all the study we had. As i remembered she quoted “baca al-fatihah 3 kali, baca doa sebelum belajar 3 kali, baca surah al-ikhlas 3 kali. Insyaallah, Allah kan buka hati kamu atu supaya kamu sanang belajar”

Tears innocently filled up my eyes and ran down to my cheek. I guess Allah must have shown his timely way again by helping me remembering those memories. I admit i am His low, ignorant and ungrateful subject when i realised i forgot how to recite Doa sebelum belajar. But He gave me another chance as He always do and let me text my cousin and asked what are the Doa. Thankful i am to Him i immediately recite my Doa and started my revision. And this is the story i wrote to always remind me it is always difficult to start something but it is never hurt to seek for help and guidance where, when and whoever you might think it fits.

-wake up september-

2010-09-22T23:02:00.000-07:00

Wake up

It the war-chant i’ve been using lately for some several reasons. Exams are coming up pretty soon and boy, i sure do a lot of procrastinating and denying that those dates aren’t coming near and sure. That is why hence the war-chant i specifically designed to fight these infectious slacking off.

Haha.

Eid Mubarak 1431H falls on the 10^th September 2010 on Friday. It was such a blessing Eid celebration as our families welcomed a new angel born. Her name Nuratiqah (hopefully i spelled it correct). Got a few snaps of her a-day-older. Congratulation daddy Asekqi and mummy Nadiah!

-yellow and everyting else-

2010-08-29T23:34:00.000-07:00

wow.. i never thought i would come back and write another one in this blog, in fact, i even thought of deleting my account. So what made me change my mind? The next time i stop blogging in again i won't re-read my previous blog anymore because you will start thinking and all these words just start coming in your head and automatically hand will be lifted and start typing in those words in the blog.

okay i know the title might be a bit off but apparently those are the first sentences that coming out from my head when i saw that title-box.

Since this is my first blog for 2010 so i'm just gonna round up everything as simple and short it could be.

Well its in every rule we usually start off something with big or most remembered. I would say me leaving SCB its quite big for me this year. Okay before i start answering your why, generally i did it not because of hate but i saw a vision of something else and SCB was not in that vision. I need to move on.

My no.1 stalker is home for good! No more long-distance call, no more instant messaging and GOOD BYE lonely weekend!!

Just as i said in previous blog and i manage to do it (finally). I am re-taking my A-Level Nov exam for Geography and Economics. So with all these free-unemployed-time i have sufficient room for revision.

26th March 2010 the day i will never forget. A very close and a dear friend Siti Aisah Ishak leave us forever in a horrific car-crash self accident. When i received the text from a friend, i felt everything around me just become silent and my head felt heavy and almost black-out myself. Few days back before the accident i spoke to her and wanted to meet her up for the weekend catch-up. But that weekend never came. The first week of her death i just can't contained myself from breaking down, melt down or even armageddon. For weeks i cried myself to sleep every night, forge my smile for everyone to stop worrying about me and i devoted myself in denial. Till now i have not that enough courage to bring myself at her final resting.

Now its the end of August 2010 so i have lotsa things to blog about for this time around and hopefully it stay that way too.

2008-12-20T06:02:00.000-08:00

we always said to our love ones that we will love them whoever they are but how many time do we actually do that? With times we tend to forget those promises and unaware that we change or sumtimes our love ones change..

The other day i was having lunch with durang alim n aimran when suddenly aimran pasang cd lagu Naff. There is this 1 particular song that immediately caught my attention and that song is "Tak seindah cinta yang semestinya".. Listen to it.. i luuvv it~ mybe because the state i'm in somehow a bit similar.. well aku chow lu 4 now sal kan lyan lawak babal epit sebalah ku ne.. majal lawaknya ahahahahaha

weddings.. reunion and funeral

2008-12-20T04:37:00.000-08:00

as owez please please 4give me 4 being inconsistent upd8ing my blog. believe me its been a hectic weeks 4 me start from end of November till now. so yea hence the title.. First it ws Umi's wedding held on the 30th Nov and i was incharge of finding a band untuk mlm bebadak. There was a set back but i manage to pull it off beautifully for that night and unfortunately i fell sick the day Umi bersanding coz of staying up very late the nite bebadak.

And then there was a reunion for Class A of SMMHT 1995-1997 on the 6th Decmber. I did have fun eventho nt many did not turn up that nite. I did took sum pics bt nt as gud as the 1 in my facebook album which been tagged by x classmate. Oh yea 4got to mention that our reunion wass held at Capers Qlap.. Hmm i still think that place got lousy customer service. i will upload sum of the pics next time coz as usual been tryin to upload but lagging yanta.. ahahahaha

And the there is a funeral. One of my distant uncle passed away on 7th Decmber because of.. hmm i cnt really explain how did he died bt mybe 1 day i will .. its kinda hush2 at da moment. So may he rest in peace..

Oh yea i did went to another wedding invitation on the 14th di Sg Liang. Ahahahaha its been awhile i havent actually attend to any of these "panggilan" tapi kn as we grow we learn that nuthing is as important than a family ties disregard how distant u r.. air yang di cincang tak kan putus chewahh~

im actually having these bad flu while upd8ing blog coz just felt like lotsa things happen l8ly ne n due to many requests from my loyal readers (ahakz!!) so an obligation th ne mengupd8 blog. Sanggup google pasal bad flu ane bh rsa kn buang panat dmamku msane. so if kamu rajin check hasil google ku agath check ne http://www.homehealth-uk.com/medical/influenza.htm

-banjir @ Ukong-

2008-10-27T01:00:00.000-07:00

it was Sunday morning yesterday when my dad woke us all up and told us to send our cars near the hills coz its been non-stop raining 4 da past 3 days n obviously my Kg got flooded. Our only bantuan was truck provided by the JKR to pass along the flood but these truck only operates during working days 6.30am-8am, 12.30pm-2.00pm and 4.30pm-6pm. I only went hum by 7pm so there wont be any trucks anymore. I decided to stayover umah mumy Fariz 4 awhile till nada banjir la. I packed up my things and ride on the trucks and zoom over to mumy Fariz's house. Hey i manage took sum video riding along on the truck and how teruk da flood at my Kg..

eh o yea b4 i went to umah mum Fariz sampat ku sgh hua ho tutong 2 check out Brunei Times photography exhibition. I owez dream becuming a professional photgrapher.. whu knows i might be 1?

-celine.. i never said that i love you-

2008-10-25T05:34:00.000-07:00

ahahaha dun be surprised by the title.. its a non-stop repeatition phrase dat stuck in my head. I keep telling myself not too attached with tv series coz its addictive but i failed and my latest addiction now is a Pinoy's tv drama MAGING SINO KA MAN. It shows evry friday till sunday.. its my only guilty pleasure i have for now during weekend. Let's get back what so interesting about this Celine thingy again.. So just now i ws watching Celine pouring her heart out to Jaime or JB.. She said all dis stuff about how she wait long enuff for him, how she had been patient helping JB to get over Jackie and move on with his life and how much she love JB all dis time.. and JB simply answered "Celine.. i never said that i love you.." WHAT THE *%#@!! ahahahaha u c that?? i'm getting all emosi now.. But no matter how much i hate JB's gut 4 saying dat but i simply just cnt resist him.. Trust me.. he is dat good looking guy *wink wink*

my JB is on the right side beside Celine :)

-welcome to the hell-

2008-10-24T04:30:00.000-07:00

ok its been a week i've been internally moved from my previous post in PL to.. how should i call it.. SDU aka The HELL!! Well the job itself was not as i described earlier on but its the person i'm working with is the HELL herself.I'm not gonna mention any names here for the sake of privacy ehehehehe even tho i dun realy care. So im not gonna blab longer coz aku saja2 kn ngusut dlm ane coz at least i let it out sumwhere rite?? hahahahahaha adios!!

-sunday wit yanta epit-

2008-10-19T02:01:00.000-07:00

woke up early coz my stomach bdangdut kn minta makan.. den tliat ku nik c epit "alasan bodoh!!" and i ws like napa lagi ne marah2 sunday morning ne.. so she explain and we dcided buang stress lepak2 pantai seri kenangan wit ruby jua. We manage catch up some stories coz its been awhile we didnt hangout.

Just realise dat i actualy haven't got my breakfast so hence da growling stomach had grown so fierce we eat arh soto haji tuah heheheh.. then after dat got so bored we lepak umah mumy Fariz and yup!! here i am updating my blog *wink wink*

-hari raya open office @ SCB-

2008-10-19T01:08:00.000-07:00

im back!! really miss updating my blog so here i am spending bit of my time skajap kan post sum of my life for the past few weeks. October 10th one of our dept Credit Initiation Unit mengadakan rumah terbuka o shud i say open office coz it was held in the office anyway.. so as usual im not gonna say much plg sal open house is just like any open house held everywhere where its all about makan, makan and MAKAN!!! so go ahead feast your eyes wit some pics aken from dat day..

me, samut and uncle hock!!

aimran waiting anticipately for makan d ujung2 ah

staff from diff dept all dressed up

preparing 4 karaoke

hmm azim with his usual "no-so-cute" gimic

ASC attack!!

ak alim call ayahanda

sibuk mengaut satay while stocks last

manage to take pic c mayan in unglorious time ahahaha

so the party was attended by our CEO and some senior officers but i manage to escape after makan sal dun wanna be "widya's victim 4 karaoke" ahahahaha sory bos.. so that's pretty much of it.

-first weekend in august-

2008-08-03T03:56:00.000-07:00

ok ok before i got down and write my reviews about the mummy, i have an obligation to write my weekend just like my title right?? So i would love to start it off from the moment i woke up on saturday morning till the latest moment im spending my weekend.. which is sitting here at my fave spot and posting my blog.

-saturday : AM- The night before i was determined brabis telling myself i will wake up early and go to work.. WORK?? ON SATURDAY?? Yep people.. i got so "lucky" to have an overtime working on saturday. Tapi kan i overslept dat morning and woke up around 10am.. So i just thought 2 myself thinking that "oh well.. at least my company wont have to spend more on budget paying my overtime. Im doin their favour" mnyamankan ati bah aku 2 hehehehehe. So like any usual saturday morning i woke up early just so i can catch up makan roti telur bcoz they wont take roti telur orders after 11am. Lapas 2 i went lepak2 d Kiulap ma c Far checking out and survey ipod, singgah Qlap Mall bought caramel gelato (sooooo addicted to caramel) then c Far so starving (even tho we just have our late breakfast and she ate half of my roti telur hee..) and decided have our lunch mkn Dim Sum d Gadong Properties.

-saturday : PM- Nuthing much tho just chit chat and have dinner mit my mummy deary and watch our fave korean drama 'Coffee Prince' but by nearly 9pm, my mum becoming.. hmm how should i say dis.. becoming a ZOMBIE sal she was sleepy and start to mumbling her words. So as ignorant as i owez be, i left my mum sleeping in the TV room and let the TV watch her snoring instead ahahahahaha!! I went to my room and watch ENTOURAGE on my laptop till i fell asleep and dream myself becoming Vincent Chase.. OMG!! ahahahahaha

-sunday : AM- i woke up earlier than my usual lazy sunday because janji wit mimie that we gonna watch "THE MUMMY" breakfast show at 10am. The Mummy was ok2 saja la for me and i was a bit disappointed ONE of the reason was this would be my first time watch Michelle Yeoh and Jet Li kung-fu-ing each other and yet the fighting scene was in slower motion which ruin Jet Li's famous "fast move".. URGGHH!! So im just gonna give a C+ for this movie.. i like the 2nd better.

-sunday : PM-

so here i am posting and updating my blog wit hana, mimie, and my sis alen. Hmm i probably just gonna sleep early and prepared mentally for tomorrow's FREE LECTURE from my bos huhuhuhu ADIOS!!

-24/7-

2008-07-30T03:34:00.000-07:00

if it wasnt for isra' mikraj holiday i probably never actualy got da chance to blog wats been happening lately.. here i am lepak at my usual spot in my hometown. Need to do lots of updating and checking my antivirus, FS, blogs etc etc.. so where in Brunei have i been all dis time? Well my donkeyh just came back for summer break n i've been devoted half of my time spending sama ia.. and of course the other half is towards more to my works. I managed to get fever o shud i say "Longan Fever" during the festive season where i practicaly find every excuse to go perayaan almost every nite just so i could buy a kilo of longan wahahahahaha.

a while ago i ws checking ranoadidas n i read dat 247 ws celebrating their 3rd anniversary.. Congratz!! Well a reason why i brought 247 is becoz i rmember sumthing that happen 2 me few months ago while i ws still working in da main office. 1 day 247 called me up 2 bring my payment receipt so dat they could refund back my money. So i promise them i would go down der on saturday as dat is de only working days im free. Cut things short, i arrive n went straight to the office sumwhere in menglait. The office ws packed n said 2 myself "wow ramai jua urg kn mnta refund ane ah?" 1 of the worker told me to sit 1st while waiting so i waited patiently for abt half an hr wen suddenly group of girls come inside the office and der dis guy tellin dem to get number tag downstair before cum up 2 da office. So i ws pretty
piss when i overheard dat guy. so i ws sulking myself n went ahead to get dat damn number. When i went downstairs 2 get da number den ada dis girl told me "eh tunggu dlu smpai kna panggil pastu if ok baru tah naik atas ke ofis durng"

Then i waited for another half an hr thinking why on earth refunding back would be a hassle? My number called up and i went inside immediately just to wrap things up quickly. Suddenly when i ws about to sit down on the comfy chair this guy asked me " apa pengalaman keraja biskita sebelum ane?" BOOM!! i swear i felt like kna bomb ahahahahahahaha "err aku nada plang ada pengalaman keraja tpi aku dtg sni kn mnta refund duitku sja" that guy was reli surprised n quickly apologize n brought me back upstairs n get things right dis time. Wow.. that is definitely one of the finest day i ever had wher i actualy laugh myself all the way back to home. Happie 3rd Anniversary 247 Assistance!! :)

-priceless treasure-

2008-06-21T06:12:00.000-07:00

aah.. school holidays.. remind me so much of school holidays during my time.. wen i was still in primary my fave time must be the school holidays because dat wud be da time all my cousins will stay at our grandparents house for the whole holiday. Rasa mcm summer camp plng 2 n lotsa sweet memories during those times. Obviously my granma tah yg pling briuh coz she alone will look after 7-10 naughty cucu hehehehehehe n im proud to say dat im in dat list :p

kmi punya timetables usualy sma everyday which is wake up early arnd 8 then shower, breakfast, liat tv, play with each other then lunch lpas tu main lg then if lucky our granpa will bring us to the beach then went hum n mandi then dinner again pastu liat tv smpai tertido.. during these times jua we probably play kdg2 smpai bekelaie but like my granpa owez sed "krg bkwn blek 2 klau sudh nada dgn bmain.." we play lotsa stuff n probably 1 of da most memorable wud be sungai dpan rumah my grandparent jarih tmpat kmi mandi n smua ampit jdi tarzan jua ahahahaha

so for my playmates during those times.. thankz for the unforgettable moment and we reli did brainwash nini girl ahahahahahaha..Ganbatte!!

-reporting beep beep-

2008-06-15T05:36:00.000-07:00

hello.. thousand forgiveness for havent been able spend a bit time posting in here n forgive me 2 coz aku pkai font size yg bsar ane.. sngaja ku jua saja2 pkai big size font. so kmana sja ku 4 da past few weeks ane? ahahahahahaha seriously aku pn nda sure wer do i start actualynya.

oh yea lupa bgtau dat i've been transfer from main office in da capital n goin back to my old place in bunut.. a place wher my life started. da workloads in bunut is like triple-more than da 1 im having in main office b4. meeting back some of da old familiar faces felt like i just came back hum. my last day in da main office my colleague set up farewell lunch just for which i think a bit sad coz i will no longer c my peeps any more (miz u ayam, syimah n hock) but im also happy coz there r ppl in dat office i dun wana c anymore hehehehe *devilish smiles*

wat else? o yea last nite we're having annual dinner for the staff in da polo club n i did have fun, da food ws good n plus i won a lucky draw voucher worth $100!!! a perfect gift 4 my mum cumin up bday on da 30th *grins* sumhow da goodies bag was ok2 sja la.. to be honest i dun even noe wats da use of dat goodies ahahahahaha

im waiting anticipate sum1 to cum hum *yezzzzaaaaa!!!!* cant wait 2 get my nightlife back on da road again baby! anyway gtg nw sal ezway kn tutup da hehehehehe krg nda pasal2 kna halau ma pnyapu..

-living with your shadow-

2008-06-15T04:54:00.000-07:00

what is lonely
is it to be in an unfamiliar place
with unfamiliar language
or is it living knowing that your heart
are no longer mine

-fallin 4 sleepless nites-

2008-05-04T01:16:00.000-07:00

dis few nites i've been having difficulties 2 sleep early. Feels like i got a knock on my head n realise i've been missing sumthing. So i started 2 hangout various places in common hangout places in Brunei. No more having dinner at hum, skipping family gathering, less hour of sleeping and more. Does dis sound familiar? hehehehehe sounds like im fallin in luv huh? Well da thing is.. i oredi hv sum1 in my life so how cud i b possibly be falling again.. Am i seeing sum1 else?? ahahaahahaha actualy everbody tot i did and i also almost tot i took da wrong steps.

Coincidentaly da person i owez hangout with is da same person, coincidentaly i hangout at da same place with dis same person n unfortunately everything hapen within dis week coincidentaly im with dis person only.. ahahahahahaha situation was totally out of control when rumors spreading out wild like da bush fires. But im reli glad dat my stalker been such an amazing person (as owez) does not believe any of dis rumors. It make me think why infidelity hapen at 1st place? My answer would be it depend on each party how 2 react o think on situation like hapen 2 mine. If any of dos parties think of sumthing more cud hapen and allowed it 2 hapen den infidelity took place.

So im glad i am blessed with gud level of mind 2 think rationaly. Situation and ppl arnd could actualy influence ur rationale so wat i did ws shut my eyes n ears n listen 2 my heart. It works!!

-tea,coffee,shakes...-

2008-04-27T00:31:00.000-07:00

come to think about it i always hang out at my fave spot in my hometown which is easyway. im not a big fan of bubble tea but they also offer different drinks like shakes and juices. so i purposely post up about these place that always there for me as my refuge. come back about the drinks they have, i used to drink chocolate milk tea then for quite some time i change my menu to blueberry shakes and now i'm back drinking milk tea with different flavor which is strawberry :P so thanks easyway for having as your loyal customer and allow me to learn to love your drinks ahahahahahahaha

-where hav i been-

2008-04-24T04:22:00.001-07:00

Phew its been a month since da last post.. Dun wury nuting serious hapen 2 me js a bit of der n here n just realise its nearly end of april!! So wats hapen 2 me? relax.. kn becerita th ku ne :P ok da 1st week of april ada big flood at my kampung.. So smua urg kg send their cars at dis usual place coz obviously every road entrance 2 our kg heavily flooded. Every morning its either i walk along da flood o naik ikut truck passing da flood n reach ada place wer i park my car. So i gve 2 videos dat involve me walking along da flood n oso ride on da truck.

ahahahahahaha during dis flood season, i js realise a different perspectives of dis incident other than grumbling waking up early morning n practicaly jump off 4rm da truck (use your imagination). i realised dat during flood season ane i got 2 noe sum of urg kg dat i nevr got da chance 2 talk with during da truck ride. sumhow i feel like mcm a big family gathering th plng tpi di dlm truck wawawawawawa :p anyway da flood lasted almost a week.. alhamdullilah..

so while trying 2 remember wats been goin on 4 da past few weeks my mind seems 2 b distracted by sum "britney spears n lindsay lohan" wannabe sitting nxt 2 me grunting abt whus been dating who, bitching deir rivals abt whu got da most "coolest" blog ahahahahahaha my cuzen Hana practicaly cudnt believe her own eyes luking at me sitting n bearing wit my "new peeps" :p

oh yea l8ly i've been voted da most bz ppl in da world (yea rite!!) coz im cumin bck 2 my old sport which is netball. I zoom 4rm my ofis n went down 2 netball court less than an hour (proud being F1 driver). My 1st week playing i obviously.. erm.. pancit coz its been awhile i havent sprint ahahahahaha after netball session i went straight hum n get shower, dinner n a bit of chit chat wit my dad.. after dat i spend my whole nite doing sum1 else assignment.. Chi Sin? yes i am dat crazy wawawawawawawa so i think dats about my routine 4 da past few weeks.. Btw Adau Gayoh celebration is cumin n im thinking wana have an open house n invites my families n frenz cum over.. But im still wtching my budget so insyaallah hupfuly everything went well.. *finger cross*

-tagged (snoring)-

2008-03-06T04:36:00.000-08:00

Here are two simple rules:
1) Copy and then Answer the questions, if you're tagged
2) Tag other blogger buddies! (as many as you want)

Tell me your real name
Starein Ainne Jugah

Your nickname(s)
nanie, nan, star, annie (hate dis name!!)

Most weird name you were called
bintang kejora (i noe!), ancit and da worse annie ah!! (majal aku ah :p)

How about the most annoying?
annie bh.. awu annie yg redhair gurl wit red clothes ah!

Your sex
Female, perempuan, kimo, .. apa lg ah?

Your sexuality
apakn? am i horny ka?

Your Birthdate
August 10th ma'am..

Your sign
the mighty leo

Your current location
easyway d brunei ahakz!

Tell us about your lineage
js pure dusun n ada sdikit tempias cina

Your ethinicity
proud 2 be dusun :)

Are you single/taken/attached/not available/available/married?
single tpi taken n currently kn settling down tpi nt sure available 2 get married.. ahahahahahaha

Highschool/College/University/Working?
working in selling organ in black market

What subjects or course are you taking?
biology sl tkt salah karat organ urg

What's your occupation?
to be honest? im a robot 4 my boss.. hw i wish i cud kiss my boss pnya ass

Do you drive?
awu aku drive tpi prefer 2 hv my chaffeur

Legally or illegally?
Legal eh!! bh mau lwn sapa pling laju parking nyiring?? ahahahahaha

Do you smoke?
i think i smoke bad pollution n fumes exhaust cars everyday

What is/are your fear(s)?
trap in a closed space rum

Honestly, do you think your attractive?
y not??

Smart?
yes i highly think myself as 1 of da smartest

Funny?
im not dat funny.. NOT!!

What is/are your most over-used expressions?
seriously??

What about your most over-used pose?
got lots of it so pyh kn pilih which 1.. ahahahahaha

Would you date someone ten years younger or older?
well.. i did both.. so not proud of myself

Best physical asset(s) of the opposite sex?
cars

Best non-physical asset(s) of the opposite sex?
jokes

Best physical and non-physical asset YOU think you have?
physical? my brain.. non-physical? my ego..

Okay! DONE! Now list out the people you want to tag! - let em' know if you want them to answer
hana bimbo
yana samut
aku bleh lg ka? :P

-Hapie McD-

2008-02-14T04:57:00.000-08:00

Its 14th Feb n obviously dis da date wer every loving couples celebrate with deir love ones.. Wherelse i called it "hapie McD". Why?? Bcoz McDonald is wen n wer i 1st fell 4 my stalker.. Probably asking wat da hell m i talkin abt.. so da story goes like dis..

Exactly abt a year ago at dis exact date i plan 2 celebrate Valentine's Day with bunch of frenz (dat includes my stalker 2!).. Everything been dcided where r we gonna meet up. It turns out dat our frenz cudnt mke it leaving me n my stalker saja so we js tot y wud we wana cncel da plan? So both of us js hangout at McD n get 2 noe each other (infact very well!) n sumhow ders chemistry btween us..

From dat night everything started 2 chnge 4rm nuthing into sumthing hmm.. *winks* anyway for all dos ppl out der hapie McD 2 u all.. :)

-scolded-

2008-02-13T03:13:00.000-08:00

hmm i started my week with bad fever, flu n even throat infection.. da 1st thing i rmmber ws wen my mum started 2 scolded me to eat n sleep well bcoz da weather l8ly js keep pouring. Shame on me still run 2 my mum everytime i got sick *blushing* anyway we went 2 da clinic n i got 2 days sick leave wohoo!! Bt da med prscriptive by da dctor not so hmm.. i h8 da so-called candy prescribed 4 my throat infection.. it tastes yucky!!!! bt alhamdullilah i get well sooner than i xpect thanks 2 my mum's very own bubur..

so wat did i do during my sick leave n stay at hum? basically i js sleep, mkn ubat n wtch dvd.. o yea talkin abt dvd, wtch da most jiwang korean dvd.. trust me on dis coz it da best time 2 watch wen u got sick.. ahahahahahahaha mine ws dis korean short-drama called "all this love". i strongly recommend 2 any of dos korean junkies out der 2 wtch dis coz its so... *sobbing* altho wen i check in da internet da title ws "if in love like them" bt anyway da soundtrack ws great esp da part wen Lee Hyori sang da last song "scolded".. i think is 1 of da sweetest song ever!! so wat i did ws i actuali copy dwn da english translated of dat song bt remind u it may not da most gud translation. Enjoy!

SCOLDED

You have to remember to shave your moustache
Don't crumpled your shirts, a cup of coffee per day
Smoke less, don't eat salty food
Now you have to get used living alone

Don't drink liquor when im not around anymore
You have to take care of yourself
Do not endure like a fool
speak out everything in your mind
Don't fall sick when im not her
You must remember to eat on time
Please.. even though its troublesome

Believe that love could go on
Im just worry that you gonna be alone
Being so long-winded to you all the time
don't dare to face you and talk about other things
Please remember my weaknesses only
and try to forget me

Just being long-winded to you before i left
Im sorry..

(all this love/if in love like them ost)

-my weekend-

2008-02-09T05:19:00.000-08:00

i oredi plan out my weekend gona go 2 my bosses house 4 CNY celebration.. infact i had lots of CNY invitation all frm my bosses,my colleague n even family.. every house we went got all makan so yea im still kinda full writing dis.. alhamdullilah.

den suddenly my stalker ws unwell so im wuri da whole trip insted of wurying whether i got angpow o not.. so i dcided 2 cancel sum of my CNY plan js so i cn go wirelez 2 check my stalker well-doing..

i admit it ws stupid of me 2 b so insensitive trying 2 cheer up my stalker by mking stupid jokes n end up i got my mood spoiled 2.. so my lesson 2day is.. dun b such an ass..

-another week in life-

2008-02-03T03:20:00.000-08:00

las week b4 i cum 2 ofis as usual morning i hv i ws getting all ready n freshen up wen suddenly i found 1 grey hair!!!! i ws cmpletely shock n immediately pull it off.. i examine it closely as if im luking 4 dna trace like in da CSI.. ahahahahahaha i gez i ws still a bit traumatic da founding o perhaps denial feelings dat im getting old :P i even keep tellin myself its da work strezz saja utk nyman kn ati ku 2 bh *winks*

hmm wat else happening dis week ah? o yea i think i solve my keep-4gettin-carkeys-inside-car problem oredi.. i install new alarm auto car lock n im pretty sure i wont hve dat problem anymore.. 2 celebrate dis i actualy install new soundsystem in my car n i felt i resurrect my car.. wohoo~ im bck in da game baby!! 2day i went 2 my 2nd hum sumwer in belait district js 2 c my niece n nephews bt kinda spoilt a bit sl things js didnt go as i plan bt i did enjoy seeing dem td..

o yeah! my colleague actually wana gather up ppl in my dept n go 2 miri dis 23rd on the national day.. dun u think its pretty ironic celebrating our very own national day in other country? ahahahahahahaha dis idea ws cum 4rm da brilliant mastermind herslf (wont mention any names) thinking miri wont b packed like every public holiday owez b bcoz ppl under govt services r not allowed 2 travel abroad. hmm.. still thinking whether i shud cum along.. we'll c abt it. ok i think dats pretty much da highlight 4 dis weeks.. so adios n tke care..

-by demand-

2008-01-27T04:19:00.000-08:00

hmm sumhow me n my cuzn kika hd dis crazy idea 2 counter-attack a close fren of mine pnya vidz. so we tot we cn do much better than her n record our very own ever 1st vidz locally made here in brunei!!! so enjoy da premiere of new n upcomin craze hittin 2 ur nearest town.. hehehehehehe

P.S: if u think we luk familiar.. yes we r 1 of da amazin race asia participant.. NOT!! erm mind you der will b no autograph session n meet-da-fan session jua ahahahahahahaha!!!!

-js babbling myself-

2008-01-27T00:25:00.000-08:00

Hv we ever wonder wat r we gona do da rest of our life? Are we js gona b satisfy wat we hve nw o we strive for more out of dis life? I seriously never gve a thought abt dis coz i noe my limitation in life.. so i dun even bother wat other opportunities await b4 me. Den my life js turn 180 degress around n saw da inner capabilities dat i've chose 2 ignored all dis times. I cn b considered lucky coz i got da chance 2 realised it b4 its 2 late. So at dis moment im preparing 4 my yet 2 b da biggest battle in my life. Im gonna take my chance 2 fight against all da odds im facing nw n c hw far i cud push my limitation. i shud thank paulo coelho 4 actualy inspired me n mke me think dat chances dun cum by itself but u create da chance n mke it hapen!! Lotsa ppl says every successful man hd a woman bhind dem 2 support dem.. i believe dat quote. I had sum1 dear 2 me who hd been 110% supportive of me both academically n emotionally.. so im taking dis chances again 2 b grateful n thankful 2 dat special sum1 4 making dis imperfections bcum beyond perfections.. Luv u xoxoxoxo 2 my no. 1 stalker *hearts*

-red ribbons-

2007-12-03T20:18:00.000-08:00

i got off frm work a bit earlier n i actualy kidnap my future boss 2 join my villain act ahahahahaha.. i js thought dat y dun i fill in my times updating my blog n write in wat hve i done last week..

as we all r well informed dat 1st Dec is World's AIDS Day so everybody at my workplace r encourage 2 wear da red ribbon 4 a day. Seriously i never reli gve a damn abt AIDS coz js as long i noe hw dis pandemic spread den its oredi more than enuff rather nt 2 think at all.. rite?

den i rmmber sum1 (very dear 2 my heart) told me dat she used 2 join AIDS related organisation responsible 4 giving more awareness 2 ppl abt AIDS n even charity 4 dis cause. It impressed me dat much person of her age (way younger than me folks!) wud actualy did spend her times 4 dis cause. Shame on me 4 actualy took thing 4 granted 2 actualy live healthy n be ignorant 2 more than millions of ppl infected wit AIDS/HIV.. so i rush dwn 2 our HR office n donated my lunch money 4 AIDS charity n dey gve me dis red ribbon n immediately i wore it ever since.. y am i writing dis blog again? its for a friend who actualy join dis organisation, spend her time non stop 2 inform us nt only 2 prevent AIDS bt also be sympathy 2 millions of infected out there. thank you 4 sharing ur passion..

-to 2007 with loves-

2007-12-02T03:53:00.000-08:00

new year is js around da corner n i oredi feel da heat.. so another year with a new chapter in our life huh? so i think dis wud b da time we reminisce wat hve we done dis year n probably start planning wat we're gona do 4 nxt year.. so wat did i do dis year? i think da most highlight event dis year 4 me wud be i finally found sum1.. my one n only stalker :p i went thru a lots dis year both ups n downside of life bt i manage 2 stood up n keep rolling on da dice..

i learn da importance of $$ in our life n how 2 mke decision-making n at da same time juggling ur priorities n other priorities 2. i felt dis year is da most fast pace moving year i ever hd so far.. everything js went shoosshh! i met bunch of gr8 ppl at my previous workplace n immediately bcum part of my life n changes in each of us include chnging career, start dating n even ada yg soon gonna get married!! n all of dis hapen in a year saja!! i smile 2 myself, take a deep breath n said "wow.. wat ws js hapen?" hmm.. so wat else ah?

oh yea i finaly move in back 2 my parents house n liv with dem after 6 years living outside.. at 1st i wasnt sure if dis is a gud idea coz i remember da reason i muv out ws 2 find experience in living n 2 look 4 myself.. bt as soon i break da news 2 my mum she ws so overwhelm n started 2 clean up my old room.. i guess she miss me dat much n i oredi found wat i've been looking outside so dis is probably da perfect time 2 move in bck n start 2 look out 4 my folks :P my 1st project wit my mum n still on-going at da mo' is 2 clear off "bad feng-shui" in our home which include throw off old things dat we no longer use n start da concept of keeping it simple.

i oredi draw out my plan 4 nxt year which include retaking exams, saving $$, looking out 4 my health more n most of all try 2 improve a better year 4 2008.. even tho im looking 4ward 4 2008 bt i still nt ready 2 leave 2007 yet coz its a year dat so.. wow!! so start reminisce n plan at da same time while 2007 lasts..

-a mighty heart-

2007-11-23T18:17:00.000-08:00

wen i ws small arnd 7-8 yrs old sumthing like dat i used 2 watch dis old cartoon titled "mighty mouse" its owez been every kids dreams 2 b a super heroes with dis cool power like bulletproof, strength of iron,see-thru eyes like superman n da most n coolest super power probably flying!! ahahahaha..

as i grew up frm childhood dreamer into responsibility grown up, we do a lots n lots of choices evryday which cud involve our sensibility, our emotional n our priorities in life. i must say i've done a lots of dis ever since i dcided nt 2 go 2 1 of da finest science school after finishing my 6th grades.. every choices i made along dos years hve brought me 2day writing my blog w/out regrets. i learn dat we dun need superpowers 2 b da superheroes. we human face all dis choices dat cud lift our life o even drain down our life bt we still keep going on even tho we noe sum of dis sacrifices 2 dis choices we've chose r not even worth it.. we all r superheroes of our own n even coolest superheroes dun even hve our invisible yet unbreakable superpowers which is "a mighty heart". so start pat urself at ur back n told urself "well done mate!! u've gone dis far n still goin on.."

nanie's anatomy (life as operation processor)

2007-11-20T03:56:00.000-08:00

i js recently moved my career post 4rm a freelancer into full-timer dull processor.. ahahahahahaha wen i 1st came inside my new office i sed 2 myself "huh?? hw cum byk urg veteran sja ne??" i ws well informed dat ppl working in dis department r workaholic n spend most of da times in office sja. i tot ppl were js joking bck den.. my 1st week in da new office i oredi went hum like 9pm!!! i cme bck hum den diner den tido.. i dun hve life ppl!!! i dun even wtch tv anymore.. i mean wat is a tv anyway?? ahahahahaha.. so i dcided 2 fight 4 my right 2 hve my life bck!! viva le nanie!! currently i actively hangout dis 1 of most accessible place in my hometown..

btw 2 any readers dat i did owe sums of money pls dun look 4 dis place coz i ws kidding abt actively hanging out here :P anyway.. i met new gang of frens here n i oredi felt warm n accepted.. thankz guys!

baby steps

2007-11-18T03:44:00.001-08:00

fuh i finally got the chance to scribble something in my blog tonight.. sorry didn't provide any pics yet pasalnya im still kinda sakai using da blog at da mo' hehehehehe.. so i probably js gona drop wateva im thinking nw ahahahahaha saja manuhkan bh eh *blushing*

dis morning i had dis great conversation abt "how do we know if he/she is da 1?" ahahahahaaha.. n dis is my opinion abt dat question.. wen were young b4 we hv any relationship at all we probably dream o think wat kind of ideal person o ideal relationship we wud wana have.. we probably list out thousands factors n points dat we look in our ideal relationship.. wit my experiences in bad break-ups, worst, good n even weird relationships my list had gone from thousands factor into less than 10.. den suddenly u js found a person who fits all dis factors left in ur "ideal relationships" list.. sumhow u knew dis is da 1.. bt ppl did ask me wat if u never found da 1?? well.. my best answer is try 2 live wit dis perspective "it js cant b perfect" ahahahahahaha dis 1st ever post is dedicated 2 my "number 1 stalker" :p